This is my take on writing 101 day 1. Unlocking mind in 20 mins.
Unlocking my mind is exactly what I need to start doing. Actually I don’t really know what to do with my life right now. I have a cool apartment in a very great country, a beautiful warm husband to cuddle and good WiFi connection, but still I feel lost. Maybe I am not grateful enough. Maybe. But maybe I just need to fulfill my needs on being greater than I am. But maybe Its just because I am really really lost. Lost in translation.
Easter lunch yesterday in my mum in law house was sort of devastating. Everyone was nice, they tried to talk to me once in a while. But still there were more than 2 hours gap, where I just able to listen some words in their full German convo, I just sat there in the middle of the room, sticked my nose to my phone. My husband was not helping either, and I don’t blame him since he also needs his time with his family. But I felt so resented, I am a person who always wanna talk and I am always in conversation and make conversation sounds better and there I was listening and holding back to talk because I am afraid to be in the wrong context with my english words. I am glad that I have super nice sister and mum in law who comforts me in the end of the day when everybody is already go home. I even get leftover!!!
Yesterday event was really point out that I feel lost because I lost in translation. And I am still working on the the super complicated German paperwork so I got admission in the language course. It’s a long way (two months) to go.
To start over, I have this one month writing challange for myself, to discipline my self, to convince myself to not let go my writing dream.
This month, I will finish Writing 101 course, complete Napowrimo, send my polished script in the end of the month and register for anything writing cool related event on May. And also strengthened my German grammar .
I believe writing heals. Writing gives me comfort not to forgot that I am lost, but to walk me through to find the answer.
Thanks to all my new folks that I meet here in wordpress, thanks to accompany me in my lost in translation era.